Steve leaves...Day 1 without him really sucks

So here I am again, blogging. The only time I invest into this blog is time that I cannot spend with my husband (hence, the fact that I blog only in March). He is off to Korea again for his annual tour with his Air Force Reserve unit. They have to go every year for some big exercise in South Korea. Of course, North Korea always gets really pissed off when they do that. They always make threats but I hope they don't do anything stupid this year.

So last year when he went, it was me and Kylie, but she was so young that it was pretty easy to take care of her and the dogs. This year Kylie is 20 months and a very active little girl! It takes a good deal to keep her "entertained" and out of trouble. Plus, the fact that I am about 7 and a half months pregnant with her little brother. It makes it that much harder to chase her around and play with her the whole day, not only because I feel huge but also because I get tired a lot faster.

Today was the hardest..I hope. Letting go of him at the airport was so hard and I have been emotional about it all day. Of course the pregnancy hormones don't help, I can never be sure if I am being normal or over-reacting when it comes to the prego emotions. Also, I am pretty tired today, we stayed up past midnight last night with last minute things to take care of and then had to get up around 4am to get Steve to the airport by 5-5:30 for his 7am flight to March ARB, Riverside, CA. He had to check in with his unit and attend a bunch of briefings all day, so he is pretty worn out too. He has to be at LAX airport for his 10 hour flight to Korea Tuesday morning, I'm not sure exactly what time his flight is, but I think it's something like 3 or 4am! Poor Steve. Although he says he doesn't really mind it because it helps him adjust to the different time zone in Korea faster, if his sleep schedule is already messed up.

The one comfort I do feel is knowing that Steve speaks Korean so he can get around the country just fine and he loves the culture and the food so he will hopefully have a great experience this time. I am also glad that he has found a way to do video blogs of his adventures. It is always wonderful to hear his voice and see him, especially when he is doing something he enjoys. I hope he is able to regularly post new installments.

I've been thinking about this all day...about why I feel so mentally unprepared to be away from him. It might be because our relationship is going so well right now. It hasn't even been 2 and a half years yet that we've been married, but we have been through a lot together. I feel like we are both growing toward each other and jumping over big hurdles in life together. We just bought our first house and have a steady income, we are making financial progress and really establishing our little family's foundation. We see things the same way and agree on almost everything. When we speak to each other, we understand completely what the other person is saying and can help finish their thought. It feels so perfect right now, I am completely content with our situation and everyday just seems to get better and better. The little things in life don't bother me like they used to, as long as Steve is there in my life to love and support me (which he does so well).

I've heard it before, usually in the movies, but when you do find that one perfect person for you, it can be so wonderful but also so risky to give your heart away completely. If anything ever happened to him, I would be completely devastated and I don't know if there would ever be a recovery, and that is really scary to think about. But when I am sitting next to him in the car, with Kylie in her carseat and the dogs in their cage in the back and we're on our way to the park, there is no where else I would rather be. I would always risk myself to have any amount of time with him. One of my favorite things that I never take for granted is being able to reach out and hold his hand whenever I want to. It really is a treasure to me to be able to do that. Of course, it's obvious to you now that my love languages are quality time and physical touch. It's great that those are Steve's as well (and words of encouragement for him too)!

I do feel a little bit better having gotten through day 1. You can see how obsessed I am with him :) I hope that I can keep myself distracted with busy work and projects around the house the rest of the time. It seems a little silly, but I think I might take up origami for a little bit...I'll check the library tomorrow on base for a book on it.